i miss the night.

Tuesday:
school was alright.
SOT going to start on next tuesday..
i'm looking forward to what's will it be like.
every lesson contents 10 marks!
and every department there's marks too!
so everything just got to do with marks marks makrs!!!wth.
sigh..
went home after school..
bath-ed and went to beatty secondary to wait for huiyi & meiyun.
&& my brother also, went down to find his friend.
waited for him damn long! saw him cycling out of school..
get scolded by me. sigh.
i can't understand why kids nowsday don't think before they do anything? sigh..
sigh.
went enter mac for lunch...
walk around tpy..
went home around 5plus?
complain to dad & mom about some teacher in beatty.
don't let me hear anything like don't care of what. i make sure i will go down to school and make a fuss over it!
stupid teacher man! MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!!

Wednesday:
everything was fine. so far so good.
told mr ang i want to approve leave on next wednesday & thursday.
he ask why and all...
can't stand him, super joker lah!
hahahaha....
have lunch with rita, my darling!
it's good to meet up with her!
......

i just miss her alot! girl i miss you!♥

what a rotten night.
guess what i slept at 430am!! && woke up at 6/610am!!
i only slept for an hour plus lah! wth!
i couldn't sleep for the night lah.
due to things that make me awake and pond on things. wth.
sighh..
someone just kill me can?
sigh..
meet with the girls as usual...
finally i pour everything out to serena & yihui, if not idk what will happen to me man..
thanks alot girls!
skipped last 2hours.
went sim lim square to find serena's husband(:
bought my crystal case there..
went for lunch at bugis street!
yucks! the food not nice! so people don't go this shop, "Hong Kong Cafe/ Cruise?" second level at bugis street.
after lunch walk around...
left there around 4plus..
took a bus home.

I thought everything was going fine.
I thought everyone is happy.
I thought everyday was good.
I thought....
my thoughts have been ruin...
my thoughts have no longer been real...
my thoughts have been dead!!!
sighh..
i couldnt get it,when i thought that things was going smoothly... it ends up badly..
sigh..

I wish i could leave.
I wish i could ignore.
I wish i could be blind.
I wish i could be dead.
I wish i could be a child.
I wish...i...cou..ld.. could...sigh.
How i wish...
whatsoever..

SUNDAY:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOEL! & HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO JONAS!
went to hougang, as jonas & joel having birthday party.
celebrated both of their birthday!
lots of people over there.. went hougang mall to walk around with angeline.
he came over to find us.
accompany him to have lunch.
after that mom called to say, she's going home alr.
so we make a move first.
nothing much actually..

MONDAY:
went school as usual..
meet the girls..
finally saw serena! she didn't go school last week as enen was sick.
lesson per normal.
yihui went home during BEG as she's not feeling well..
actually didn't plan to go for LPD, but went in e end..
haha, i was a good girl that attend all lessons!(:
ah wen shushu treat us dinner..
went to yishun to have dinner, after dinner went over to his house..
seat adeline's jie(ah wen shushu's girlfriend.) car, but ah wen shushu drive.
watch-ed the 9 o'clock show.. left at shushuhouse at 10.

TUESDAY:
meet the girls as usual.
yihui didnt come school..
went lunch after school..
the food not bad(:

WEDNESDAY:
didn't go school again..
the back of my head pain, so never go school..
stay at home the whole day.
around evening accompany dad to amk to collect money..
than went to fish shop to look around.
dad decide to buy fish. LOL!
anyway, that fish was nice!(:
suppose to go out, but didnt go school, can't go out..

THURSDAY:
meet up with him..
accompany to meet the girls.thanks.
meet yihui half an hour early to have "breakfast".
serena & sharon join us.
was late for BEG.. mrs teo was kind, didn't scold us or what.
after BEG have 5 items and 2.4km run..
sit-up=5 points.
sit & reach=5 points.
incline=5 points.
shutter run=4/5 points
standing board jump=0points.
2.4km=14.40.
total=???
fail standing board jump!
wth!
everthing ended around 5?
went j8 with yihui & sharon for awhile.
after that went home..
whole body pain sia...

FRIDAY:
meet the girls..
whole body aching mannn!!
pain like hell..
POA no lesson, help mrs foo to do things.
BPF lesson as normal.. but 15 mins early dismiss...
BEO no lesson, as mr ang let us watch the fashion show?
sit at the foyer for whole 2 hours!
the show was still alright...
kinda of boring?
went lunch after that.
had curry chicken! yummy!
went home after lunch..
suppose to go out with zhuzhu & mei.
took a nap while waiting for zhuzhu to call me..
woke up around 5 plus?
wait for zhuzh to sms me.. he go mei house than meet me.
i can't go out so told him not meeting him.
accompany mom to get things.
actually going to ls but auntie susan forget to bring mom things down so not going in e end.
plus dad back pain..so stay at home.
slept around 11 plus..
sigh..

SATURDAY:
woke up around 11?
meeting the group at 1230 at 111 coffee shop.
after lunch didn't go out with them.
suppose to go serena house but yihui & sharon didn't go so never go in e end.
went to find ah ma.
went to cut my fringe.
ex sia, $4 for just a cut.
wth!
i still want to cut my fringe not short enough...
angeline came to find me than went ah ma house to slack.
left around 5plus.
went home..
bath-ed and wait for my ahir to dry, went to sleep after that.
feeling very tired nowsday...
mood wasn't good also..
argh!

SUNDAY:
woke up pretty early..10plus..
watch tv til 1?
fry bread with eggs & eat.
put too much sugar.. actually wanted to eat mac.
craving for mac sia! & i want the cup also!
sian.. nothing to do sia...
mac!
mac!
mac! anyone want to eat mac??

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

I need you boo (ooh!)
I gotta see you boo (yay!)
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight


Hey lil mama
Ooo you're a stunna
Hot lil figure
Yes you a winner and,
I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class all your own and,
Oo lil cutie
When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops,
You're my sweetheart and,
I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind and,
You mean to me, what I mean to you
And, together baby there is nothing we won't do


Cause if I got you, I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart
And...

Oh...
I'm into you and girl
No.. one else will do
Cause with every kiss, and every hug
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And now I, no I can't be the only one...
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I don't want nobody else
Without you there's no one left and..
You like Jordan's on Saturday
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now
Hey lil shawty, say ya care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I'll be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
To be you're everything... yeahh


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And I...
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Cause if you, ever let me go
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Cause if I got that, then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my dream


I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight (hey..)
Said the hearts all over the world tonight (boo boo ooo yeahh...)

I need you boo (big needy)
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight (world tonight)
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Oh...
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No. one else will do
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THURSDAY:
ign came over to my house at 5plus 6?
talk and slack in my room..
had dinner around 6plus 7?
rita & jere came over aroun dthat time too.
watch-ed tv for awhile..
went into my room to chat, as mom and aunties they all, in the living room..
they left around 9?
jeremy keep bully people!
and my poor hello kitty! tsktsk.

FRIDAY:
went school as normal.
had fresh milk & bread for my breakfast!(:
didn't meet the girls, went school with daphne.
late a few mintues for POA, lucky teacher didn't scold.
after POA is BPF, forget to bring my file to school, so copy karen' work.
wasn't feeling well during BEO! sleep for an hour?
was feeling cold, headache & back pain!
just killing me, all this pain..
suppose to go out after school but the auntie not free so yihui & chin came over to my place to slack..
yihui sleep for 30mins sia. haha.
went out at 2.30?
reach home around 5plus 6?
wasn't feeling well again.the pain like on & off. damn it.
lie on my bed, until dinner time had dinner in the living room..
have rice & soup for dinner, no appetite.
took 2panadol..
in school a extra strong pandaol, wah that's really works..
but it last fro 3-4 hours.
chat on the phone for awhile, & his mom need to use the phone.
i fall asleep afterthat.
when he call-ed back, i was sleeping like a pig!!
miss call me 5 times.lols.
guess now his turn to be sleeping.

suppose to go sentosa with yihui, sharon, chin & easter!
butbut... i couldn't wake up!!
damn tired sia!!
people called me, i also dk, all i know is i want to sleep!!
guess what, i'm the last to wake up!
woke up around 12plus.
nice sleep! ddn't plan to go out again, so maybe later sleeping again!(:
to fulfill my sleeping time. haha.

Way Back Into Love.(doesn't mean i'm in love)(:

TUESDAY:
went school as normal.
yihui, serena & zeelia didn't come school, so only sharon, me & wanchin.
argh!
was having headache in the morning, thought of going home after POA but ended up went home at 12.
back pain + headache=killing me!
so went home with daphne, packed mac back.
ate a few mouth, angeline eat the rest.
take panadol & went to sleep.
slept til 5plus 6?
had dinner.. guess what i wake up 11plus 12 to take panadol again!
sigh..
suppose to meet up with him, but he got things on, so postpone to wendesday.

WEDNESDAY:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!♥
didn't go school, rest at home.
suppose to go out with him, but wasn't feeling well..so again we postpone to next week.
meet zhuzhu to study, suppose to be teaching EBS, but i don't even understand anything expect customer service. haha. which he don't need to know for now. haha.
saw vanessa, ruliang & stephie at mac, say hello only.
study til 4plus?
went popular to buy my ring file for BEO.
after that took bus home. can't stand the pain, it's killing me lah.
suppose to going tua, but was tired, so never go.
he told me to take painkiller, that he left me the other time.
the painkiller did works(:
took panadol after the pain killer...
was much better.. which i could talk on the phone til 12plus?

THURSDAY:
didn't go school today. back aching again...
sian..
woke up at 11plus...
sigh..
didn't want to update anymore...

sigh.
yes, no wasn't what i want to give you.but guess in the end i choose no.
sigh.
i've been thinking of this question, what if i'm gone/disappear/missing///die?
what will happen?
will it be good? bad?
sigh..
didn't know why this question seem to be my daily question..
sigh..
maybe it will happen someday? when is that day? hmm..
i din't know it will be so hard to forget...
i tried my best to forget, but all the memories stay firm in my mind.
sigh.
what you say last night, really make me want to cry...
what could i do to forget every single thing??
avoid, angry or whatsoever, it's up to you.
maybe... maybe there's someone out there better than me? who knows..
sigh..

argh..
my back pain is killing me!!

2nd week of school!
guess what i skip 2hours of lesson=p
serena went home, zeelia & yihui also goin home, so might as well go home(:
so yeah, i'm home.
meet with the girls as usual, i'm the first to reach(:
had breakfast and all...
slept late last night..
couldn't sleep, he accompany me sms-ed..
but before i fall asleep, he didn't reply me. nevermind.
woke up at 6.40, bath and get ready.sms-ed him on my way to take bus.
sms during lesson.
stupid leow! never come school also never say, make us go school so early! wth!
waste my time..
so talking among ourselves.
so far today only have 3hours of lessons.. as i skip the last 2hours of lesson, LPD
went home after school, took train with yihui.

yesterday went out with zhuzhu.
went novena to walk around.
went home late! yeah, get scolded by mom.
sae jameskor at bradell bus stop, ask him to accompant me to central to get my calculator battery changed.
walked to central, stupid kor! keep disturing me!
&& i don't Pots Of Nuggets now kay!! i'm going to school everyday(:
bored!
bored!
bored!

someone's birthday coming soon. haha.
hoping tmr will be a nice out?(:
smile.

FRIDAY:
meet up with the girls as usual..
lesson was alright.
school ended early by 30 mins.
smilpy love the day..
study for 3 hours?
BEO suppose to have 2hours of lesson by mr ang came late, & he gave us 25 mins break.. stay in class as before mr ang came in zeelia & chin went to buy drinks & foods.
chat around.. karen they all planning outing, they mention a few places.
looking forward?hmm..
went hme after school..
bath and change, went to meet zhuzhu!
pass him the clear folder as he need.
went boon keng hawker to eat.
accompany him home, waited for him at a void near his house.
ohmygod! he took half an hour lah! make me feel so lonely &cold! sad.
walk out to take bus to city hall..
went to penisular? to buy skinnies.
he bought two of it, black & grey! i choose for him, grey. hehs.
walk around to check whether that place have jesery ant.
found 2shops.
basement shop give the price of $20.
level 2 give $17.50.
level 2 was the cheaper after i've checked oout other places.
thought of going other place to check the prices..
went city hall tower? to eat. something happen.. shall not go into it.
went back around 6?
guess what, we reachome tpy around 7 plus!
idiot sia, the bus damn long lah!
anyway, it's fun out with my zhuzhu!
stupid sia, he keep making me laugh lah.
idiot zhu. haha
i love the day out with him eh, think it's the first time that only 2of us went out. haha.

yeahyeah. it's saturdy & i thought i could wake up late!
but.. i didn't.
woke up around 8plus & i shocked by something which i can't sleep back. wth!
dad woke up early too!
dad: are you going out later?
me: no. why leh?(going to the toilet)
dad: later going ahma house to bai ahgong.
me: (came out from the kitchen) what time?
dad: dk leh, wait for them to sms me.
me: (huh?) okayokay,
dad: before 12.
me: okay. (went back to my room..)
dad: you going mah?
me: going. (closing my room door)
dad: than still don't want to bath ah?
me: give me 5 mins. i lie down for awhile.

ha. see i shouldn't talk to him!
because of that and something plus i can't sleep back!
bath-ed and all.. walked to mom shop to take car key & wait for mom to close shop.
reach ahma house, so many there lah..
argh!
came home around 12 plus? as dad got to work.
sian...
stayed home the whole day. going out for dinner soon.
going hougang later!
chatted with chapman korkor just now, using adeline jiejie account. haha.
they at the ndp preview.. jie on duty so kor use his account bah?not sure.
hmm..


it's been 3days since i last talk to you..
cant be bother anymore.

SUNDAY:
went to vanessa's bbq(:
mom ask me to bring anson along, so i asked permission before he tag along.
suppose to meet rita at 4pm, end up 4 plus 5, as she need to do something.
bus-ed down to pasir ris.. meet jeremy on the bus.
reach pasir ris interchange saw james, bus-ed together to the pit..
reach the pit, felt abit weird..
huiyi, meiyun, joanna, yoke peng & prabha was there. vanessa's family was there & cg too.
say hi and all.. did some catch up and all...
anyway, van thanks for inviting me!
bus-ed home around 10plus?
send rita's home, accompany james to meet pei xuan...
than home sweet home..

MONDAY:
school start!
first day of shool was tiring, boring! unfun at all! (exp talkig to all my girlfriends)
have new timetable, new modules, new teachers!
mrs foo teaching POA
mr ang-BEO
mr leow-BPF
miss teo-BEG
nelly lim still teaching us LPD!
she;s fun and all... but sometimes kind of naggy!ha.
school ended at 3pm.. home after that.

TUESDAY:
went school with daphne.
i thought i'm the first to reach class... but serena was there.
she didnt meet yihui & sharon..
lesson ended at 12pm!
no break at all!
went home to change than went out for lunch with angeline& anson.
fall asleep while listening to music..guess i was to tired..

WEDNESDAY:
morning meet with the girls to have breakfast..
was raining so we stay at mac till the rain stop.
mr ang was kind, he didn't mark us late for the first hour..
so we only have three hours of lesson!
woo nice!
9-11 was mr ang lesson!
nothing gets into my mind!
all i know is "??????".
11-12 is mr leow lesson.
at least something gets into my mind is numbers and all! haha.
suppose to go gym after school with yihui, but the weather was nice so didn't go n the end.
went home to change than meet up with bernie, accompany him home to change than went over to novena to meet up with others friends..
sigh.
i'm sad to say, i'm sorry i can't help you with the matters anymore..
i didn't want to be question like criminal...
train-ed down to woodlands to walk around..
left around 5 plus?
drop off at inter, went to check something.
bus-ed home to put my bag down than wne to lor8 market to have dinner with rita & juncen!(:
it's been a long time, since i last see him..
fellowship til 10.10pm?
didn't send rita's house as i'm tired, got to pack desert for angeline.
sorry rita didn't send you home..
told juncen where to take bus than went home after that...
reach home, did some phone call...
sigh.. sigh..

i was totally disappointed at you..
i didn't think i'm wrong for not telling you things..
you don't need to question me like i'm the one in wong..
if you think that by telling her, she will understand, there's nothing i can say..
both of them are my gan didi, do you think i don't care about them?!
i'm trying to solve it, in a way that none of them will get hurts, get it??
but now i don't think i will say anything more.. please make sure both of them dont get hurts..
sigh..
i was sad.. that you could even raise your voice on me! WHEN I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!WTH.
i mean, you should know that i don't like people shouting at me for nothing!!
but you still do it!! SIGH!!

it's seems that we have be two different world??

a day more, school going to start! i haven't buy my school shoes and all.=/
don't really lokking forward to school now.. mood and feeling just killing me...having mix feeling and unsure mood, isn't what i want..what kind of day will it be?

a month plus holidays going to end soon.. and the most scary thing going to happen soon!=/
school start means... not a chance i can meet my zhuzhu for movie?
...tiring school.
...irrating teachers!
...less hang out?
...got to study, in order to go higher nitec?
sigh.
guess i got to spend today &tmr well.. not to il-treat myself by staying at home! HA HA.

meeting HI-FIVEplusONE.
bring bernice out(:
tmr will be going to vanessa's bbq.
.......
.......
.......
how i wish holidays will be extend.

i've been a good girl man.
was staying at home, ytd.
slept for 3hours in the afternoon.
actually meeting yihui out but we have no idea where to go! so end up staying at home.
chat with her on the phone for about 20 mins?
can't believe i stay my friday noon at home. haha.
being a good girl is not easy uh?

everlasting present.

a blink it's friday alr..
weekend to spend fruitfully... && school starts just in 48-more hours time...
what a thing that im not excited but happy for.. LOL!
yeayea, whatever school starts and whats going to happen, i'm not so eager for...

wednesday:
new cupboard arrive!
they cheated my feelings! they deliver the wrongwrong cupboard to us!! what the heck!
haterd!
mom called to complain.. they say they will deliver the cupboard to us when there s stock! so we just use the one that deliver as temporally...
so help mom to pack in the clothes... guess what, not enough to put our clothes!!!
argh!!=/

thursday:
went town for dinner with ign & dennis(:
meet ign at 6pm at red cicle but i was late as usual..
waited for dennis at mrt station...ha, he cant figure out which is tail or head..
suppose to meet in the last thrid cabin but he's at the head while ign &me at tail. so we ended up meeting at orchard..
went for dinner at wisma? food junction..
after dinner walk awhile at wisma.. than went over to far east! window shopping...
ha! dennis "teach" us J-WALK! he say J-WALK need to have skill. haha. it's kind of scary J-WALKING at orchard road eh..
after far east went to Heeren.. we did the same thing window shopping.. haha.
left Heeren, went over to Cine..
slack at the Food Junction too.. hahaha. at there dennis begin to have his EMO hairstyle! haha. ign&me was laugh like nuts... we took photos and have fun man.
wanted to have early supper at food junction but i was too full to eat. ign didn't want to eat, so left only dennis... he wanted to eat beef mee? i can't eat so he change to carrot cake, but ign don't eat that.. fish soup the last choice but we keep dragging and all... end up we didn't eat anything as we can't make up our mind, plus the mostly all the stall closing.. haha.
slack around there til 10plus-11?
went to this building next to wheellock shopping mall? slack around there..
home at 1130? it's fun out last night. it's been long since i have a good laugh... hahaha....

suppose to meet yihui to go zeelia's chalet..
but i can't go for long.. so ended up never go..

ahma havent called me yet!
she say she wanted to go out... i need to buy my school shoes-$29.90
a NUM bag?
a sling bag-$10-$20?
thinking of getting a top? hmm...
but think about clothes, i will think of mom's nagging!!
LOL!
i better give ahma a call...

yesterday was out. not bad did some catching up(:
hoping that school never start, how great will that be?
had durians.. was delicious! ate alot, but it s worth. haha.

currently at ahma house, later going out for dinner at amk. staying overnight tonight, will back tmr morning..
guess what... my new cupboard will be arriving tmr man!
got to pack my cloeths and all.. if you want to see a red nose, give me a call or come over to my house. i will be the one!
just now went to have hair cut!
not much different... lOL! a cut to welcome schools reopen? LOL!
thursday going down town east to celebrate zeelia s birthday.. meeting yihui && serena. man it s a month since i last see yihui? kinda of miss them..

a sudden thought..
sometimes, others cant take the first step out, why not you take the first step? maybe things will turn out to be better? you will never know unless you try, isn t that right?
sometimes emotional will keep us from taking first step... so why not have the courage?
it s better to have courage than any other emotional..

if im given a choice i will take up all my courage to take the first step..

im tired of all the question that you ask..
think whatever you want, there s nothing i could say. whether to be friends ant, it s your choice.
i cant be bother...
all i could say is... you are always kept in my heart...
my heart has long died... im not sure what feeling am i having.. so dont ever ask me what am i thinking or feeling...
maybe it s times for you to let go of everything and forget everything.. get a new start.
it s a wrong choice that you know me...sigh..

WHETHER, FRIENDS OR YOU.
HATE ME, ALL YOU WANT.
THERE'S NOTHING I COULD SAY.
I DONT ASK FOR ANYTHING!
SOMETIMES IS HARD TO BE A FRIEND....

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你还记得吗 那些回忆的片段 两人的脸庞 阳光下笑得自然 世界因你而变暖 没有你而变得空旷 多渴望你这时能回到我的身旁 oh baby 请原谅我 一切都是我的错 都是我不够成熟 是我执著是我软弱 oh baby 请你回头 请听我说天长地久 能不能再一次握紧你的手 一切从头来过
知道你很难过 我的心在颤抖 我一砖一瓦 为你亲手 大造幸福轮廓 oh baby 请原谅我 一切都是我的错 都是我不够成熟 是我执著是我软弱 oh baby 请你回头 请听我说天长地久 能不能再一次握紧你的手 一切从头来过